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Name: gracie
Birthday: 10/13/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: driving in rhonda, turning up the music and rollin down the windows, havin fun with great people, and having laughs with family
Expertise: im pretty much amazing at everything...
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
6/16/2004
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| I actually wanted to start this entry by saying why I think Jim is the absolute very best romantic character on television.
He cares about Pam. That may sound like a "duh" statement but after having watched several episodes continuously it's really what makes him, him. He encourages her and makes sure that she is okay with her life choices. He's always trying to do the right thing for her and by her. He really exemplifies what it means to be a servant in a relationship-and it's a secular show. My favorite moments are when he's pushing her about her art, encouraging her to do something she loves, and telling her that he thinks she can do it all. Yes he's funny and adorable but all of the moments when I'm like "awwww Jim!" it's because he's done something and you can tell that he was really thinking about her.
Alright, now to what this is really all about. I do believe that college makes me restless. I don't know that I can be here anymore. I need to be able to change schools every semester. I know I've talked about building communities here and how important that is to me (it is very important) but that's not happening. It only really happened at Trevecca only AFTER i left. So maybe I just need to be constantly moving. I want to be away from everyone and everything. I don't want to have to run my plans past my parents to see if it's okay. I want to be able to just GO. Is that really too much to ask? I want to be in Colorado or a place where I don't know anyone and nothing can restrict me. So frustrating. Frustrating because it's never going to happen. I'm always just going to be "here"
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| 1. Please do not act like you don't know me. I do believe there was a strong friendship at one point. If that's no longer, then that's okay. It happens sometimes. What doesn't need to happen is rudeness. Figure it out.
2. This may be weird to post on Xanga and might be a too much information for some-boys may want to avert their eyes- BUT I hate the way my boobs look. There I said it. I hate seeing them without a bra on. I won't go into detail but I think they are ugly and don't look like they are supposed to. If I can't say that here then where am I supposed to say that?
3. I love fall and always regret leaving my camera in my room.
4. When will my face stop freaking out on me? I mean really, I'm 20 now. Time to cut it out.
5. The friends thing is slowly moving in the right direction. God is good.
6. I want to be in Nashville right now. That's a fact.
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| So I've decided that if I wanted to go to school to make friends, I should've stayed at Trevecca. I'm more comfortable this semester at Miami, but I just can't see myself making a close knit group of friends. I love my roommate and I'm "friends" with all of her buddies. It's just like I feel like I'm just supplemented on the side. I'm not actually a friend just someone who is with Noelle so they talk to me. I try to get involved but that doesn't help a whole lot. People in clubs have already made their friends there. Even in Campus Crusade there is a clear pecking order of who gets to volunteer or head committees or just be involved in general. I don't actually know if I have a girl "best friend" right now. That's a tough thing for me to deal with. Actually I know that the two girls I would consider my best friends are not even close by. One is in Spain, the other in Nashville. What does that say about me? I can't be friends with anyone who is near me? I was looking through Katie Bryants profile pictures and most of them are her and Erin. I used to have friendships like that. I used to have girls who I did crazy things with. What happened? We grew up and went our separate ways? So why haven't I been able to find that again? I'm so frustrated. I look forward in my life and feel like I'm never going to have community. I'm never going to have a circle of friends to confide in. I honestly couldn't tell you who my friends are right now. I don't hang out with people, other than Noelle and Caleb. I talk to a lot of people but that's just not enough. Maybe it will work itself out but for the meantime I guess I'm just here for school.
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| "Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you,
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier.
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't let you walk away."
Thank you Carrie Underwood, please sing my life.
I hate not having a job.
I hate that because I don't have a job I feel completely worthless.
Also I hate looking at old pictures and seeing how skinny I use to be.
WHY DIDN'T SOMEONE TAKE THE FOOD AWAY FROM ME?
that's my xanga rant.
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| i'm sitting in a coffee shop and i feel like i should be doing something "coffee shoppy"
i already have step one down-being on my mac.
i feel like step two is sit moodily in the corner.
i have found my big comfy chair.
why couldn't it have been this easy at Miami? why do i make friends with people i have to leave?
I try to stick up for Miami students. whenever someone makes a generalization, i try to say "it's really not that bad" but i will have to say, they aren't that friendly.
everyday i'm in this place i meet someone new, someone who is friendly and excited to know someone new.
i need to spread that love to Miami. I don't know how i will do that but i need to find a way. because to have this in oxford would change my life.
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